What is love?

New Love is seeing her face everytime you close your eyes. It's is being able to hear her voice, smell her perfume, and feel her touch even when she's miles away.
It's is a rush of emotion when you see her, hear her, touch her that you can't describe or control it just drowns you.
Lasting love is not perfect you will disagree and fight and make each other want to pull your hair out. you will stress and you will hurt. but then she will wrap her arms around you and you will apologiz​e​ and everythi​ng​ iwll be ok and your relation​ship​ will be stronger​.​
love is when she takes your breath away whether she is in an evening gown or sweatpan​ts.​
love is knowing that no matter what is going on or how much you disagree about somethin​g​ your partner will stand behind you and defnd you against anyone.
love is knowing that you have someone to lean on in your hardest tiems as well as someone to share the joys with.
love.​...love​ is being so intwined that at times you can't find where one ends and the other begins.
Love.​...canno​t​ be adequate​ly​ describe​d​

Waiting For You

Everyday I send you messages
Knowing you won’t respond
Everyday I think of you
Are you really gone?

People tell me to stop waiting
But a promise I have made
I won’t let this go
I can’t just walk away

I will be here when times comes
And your wounds have healed
I will be here forever more
Even after my coffin’s sealed
I won’t leave you

I just can’t
I can’t give up
On this beautiful tragedy
Am I not supposed to love you?
Do you want me to just go?

I wish I could really know
I don’t want you to hate me
I want you to be mine
I cant’ just walk away
Without a word and cry

You asked for time to think
Is that really all you need?
Or is that you telling me to get lost
Without cutting me down deep

The thing is I am loyal
I’ll wait here till the end
Through all the pain and toil
I’ll be here when you mend

If you want me to just leave
You need to open your mouth and speak
Don’t leave me hanging
Please give me a sign
At least the words
I need more time
　

Otherwise I don’t know
Any I begin to doubt
I won’t leave you
I enjoy this pain to much
But people start to see me pout

You need to get some help
No I’m just heartbroken
I feel like a hollow shell
My heart, my mind my soul
Trapped in my own hell

I’m lost without you
I don’t know what to do
I can’t move on not knowing
I don’t want to know the truth

Do you really love me?
Can we mend this break?
Or shall we run like foolish children
Leaving heartache in our wake

Laying On A Sun-Warmed Concrete Bench

Laying on a sun-warmed concrete bench
Planes crawl like ants across a pale blue sky
Close my eyes as a cool breeze caresses my face
Remembering another place and time
When you were by my side
　
Dreaming of a time
When you lit up my life
Like that screen lit your face
At that drive-in movie
I have yet to see

Think of those nights
Laying in my bed
The phone warm against my ear
Your voice lulling me to sleep
Dreams overtaking my love drunk mind
　
Reminiscing the times we laughed and played
All the dreams we sat and made
All the plans we laid
And then
You were gone
Leaving me here
　
Laying on a sun-warmed concrete bench
Planes crawl like ants across a pale blue sky
Close my eyes as a cool breeze caresses my face
Remembering another place and time
When you were by my side
Realizing then
That your still here
My best friend
New emotions run deeper
I can’t see an end
　
I’ll be here
Through thick and thin
You know I got your back
Down every twist and bend
I’ll catch you when you fall
　
I know that things have changed
Seems like for the better
I think of this
And I smile
　
Laying on a sun-warmed concrete bench
Planes crawl like ants across a pale blue sky
Close my eyes as a cool breeze caresses my face
Remembering another place and time
When you were by my side

Dead And Gone

Gone

A black and burning hole
You left inside my core
Where once resided my soul
　
You ripped apart my heart
And drown me in my tears
You threw me to the curb
And solidified my fears
　
I cried for you
I tried everything I knew
Where once there was an easy smile
Now my eyes see shades of blue
　
I’m broken
There’s nothing left to give
I’m numb
I don’t even want to live
　
No tears left
To heal my soul
The pain I caused
Returned threefold
　
I can’t go on without you there
I don’t even want to try
I can’t give up, I just can’t die
For that would only prove you right
　
I know I must move on
I know I cannot die
But for now
I’m going to take my time and cry
　
I will do what I have to
To let this pain roll free
I can’t bottle it up
Don’t try to lend me glee
　
This scar will stay forever more
My heart is guarded well
An icy wall of stone and memories
My body naught
But an empty shell
　
Hug me, kiss me, make me bleed
You’ll get the same from me
An icy smile and a thank you ma’am
No emotions will you see
　
I’m dead an gone
Deep inside
But you will never know
Forgive me lord
My pain is whole
Love is a luxury I cannot afford

Monsters

I hate this feeling


when things are at their best


is when it always strikes it seems


I feel like a child


Afraid of the monsters under her bed


But the monster do exist


Only they're living in my head


I talk and talk


And try to get it out


But they only sit and laugh


The more I scream and shout


I try to stay quiet


I just can't deal right now


I will be ok


But someday once again


When I think everything's gone away


They'll rear their ugly heads


I hear everything they say

I know

 I know I don’t have the right
To be jealous or hurt
After all, I started the fight
I still hate to see you flirt

I know I don’t have the right
To say that when I’m not in your arms
It seems like I can’t breathe
I know I shouldn’t want to cause him harm
But I never expected you to just leave

I know I don’t have the right
To call you angel, or sweetheart or baby
I can’t stop my heart
From jumping at the thought of maybe
If I play it smart
You might take me back

I know I don’t have the right
To ask you for a kiss
But when you take me in your arms
My world just turns to bliss
All agonies erased no reason for alarm

I know I don’t have the right
To expect you to be there
I pushed you away
And this time life was fair

I know I don’t have the right
To wish that you could see
We’ve lost each other but we’re still right here
I love you and you love me
How can we be so far away, and at the same time oh so near

I know I don’t have the right
To write this poem and show it to you
It’s a dirty trick and maybe even cruel
For I know what it will do
I love you but I’ve been a fool
Can we try again?

A Kiss

You catch my gaze
Sending chills down my spine
In your eyes a searing blaze
Matched..only by mine

You take my hand
Your love is true
I can hardly stand
and yet I stammer like a fool

You silence my protest
With a slow sweet kiss
No air within my chest
My stomach doing flips

You wrap me in your arms
And stare into my eyes
Our hearts are safe from harm
Together we'll be fine

The Music Of Life

The Rhythym and drive
Of a red pounding drum
It keeps you alive
With a beat never ending

　　

The whistle and scream
Of air passes through chords
A deep breath in between
Note upon note

　　

Fall and Climb
The flow of sensations
Faster and sower
All reactions in time

　　

Joy, Passion, and Strife
The rhythym of the times
Fate is the maestro to
The music of life

Fly Away

I feel the tug and pull
of cities unknown
up the ladder we slowly trudge
a wanderlust withing my soul
I cannot seem to shrug
******************
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I want to go and see
The cities less well known
I wish to walk the streets
And hallways of museums
Of which, most people, only dream
******************
******************
I want to fly away
My camera, My love, and I
Until we bore, in each place we sill stay
On the sunlit beaches
I ache to romp and play
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We take our leave, my love and I
To where, even we don't know
A cheerful departure no tears to cry
Come my love
Let's go and fly

The Tempest

I feel it fast approaching
Some impending doom
On sunlight clouds encroaching
The palm trees shake and swoon

The birds in flocks of thousands
Flee before the storm
Desperate alarms have sounded
What devil has been born

Screaming wing cause church bell's toll
Rain pounding on the sand
Strands of lighting thunder roll
Nature's eerie band

Night and day
The storm doth rage
With people's minds it starts to play
Like deamons in a cage

Roads turned rivers
Knocked down trees
Of the sun we see a sliver
As rain begins to ease

Nature's might adjournes
In the breeze a flag unfurls
As life returns
To a fresh washed world

It's Not That I Don't Love You

Its not that I don’t love you
Because you know I always will
It’s just that I can’t do this again
To many girls for far to long
Thought they could toss me out
And real me right back in
And I let them
I’m sorry you’re the one
That has to bear the cross
Of me finding myself
And finally standing up
I can’t let you do this
Am I your lover or your friend?
Yes I’m asking you to choose
But no not permanently
If you change your mind let me know
But I need clear cut lines
I understand your need for space
Am honoring your request for time
I’m asking you to understand
MY need for peace of mind
And I know that you know
Its not that I don't love you

Dangerous Emotions

Dangerous
Emotions
Stirring deep inside
My heart beats
Faster and faster
I have to sleep
But I just can't leave
How do you touch me?
Reach way down deep
Pull from my soul
The words I wish to speak
But foolishly I stop you
And when you leave
I still can't sleep
My mind replays
Each and every scene
Adding in
Our words unspoken
To torment me
With what might have been
Had I not been so afraid
As I lie awake
And my mind replays
Each look and touch
I see the clues
The hints you drop
That me heart was deaf to
My eyes saw not
Tears wet my cheek
Will I see you again?
Another chance
To do it right
Or will you disappear
Like so many do
Around you I feel safe
But my heart still fears
Still holds on to the years
She left me here
Upon my back
I have no wings
I have no armor
The wound still stings
But when I am with you
I have the wings of an angel
To fly us away
And be safe
I speak my mind
No longer afraid
And you stay with me

Letter To A Dead Man

You’re gone
But I'm here
You’re blind
But I see
You’re so numb
But I feel everything
You don't know
The scars I carry
You don't know the secrets I hide
You can't see
The shadows on my soul
You can see
That you ruined me
You can't feel
The broken bones
You can't feel
The bruises I never showed
You can't hear
The tears I've cried
You can’t' hear
The pleas I've screamed into the night
You can't taste
The blood from my split lip
You can't taste
The liquor that I sip
You can't smell
The gas leak I created
You can't smell the cigarette I lit
You can't see,
Feel, hear, taste, or smell
You can't know
Because you’re already dead

Decieved

How was I so stupid
To think you really cared
I wish that I had really seen
All that time I sat and stared
Seen the witch inside you
Seen the rope that  you were weaving
You wrapped is slow around my neck
All the while I’m believing
That you love me
Then the day of dawning came
I saw I was deceived
To lateThe noose was tied
Your final act
To try and make me bleed
In my drug like stupor
I allow you to succeed
I bear the scars upon my arm
As you push me off
That fragile ledge
Your rope cuts off my scream

How?

How can you still take my worst day
And in fifteen minutes make it my best
How can you still take the teardrops
And make them into peals of laughter
How can you still make my stomach
Do joyful somersaults at the sound of your voice
How can you still make my heart
Flutter and dance against my ribcage
How…after everything…can you still be
The one I want to run to
How can I still be in love with you?

Love Isn't Fair

I don't know what to do
You like me and I like you
But somehow you’re with him
You say it’s been awhile
And he's serious with you
But do you love him?
Does he love you?
Like I do?
I don't know what to do
I don't want you to feel pressured
But I don't see how it's fair
When you like me
And I like you

Holding Hands

I sit here
Next to you
Wishing you would take my hand
I would take yours
But I’m still not sure
That this I what you want
I lay my hand down
To wait and see
You take my hand
And I give yours a squeeze
Seeking reassurance
That this is a shared desire
You return my gently pressure
We share a look and smile
No matter how this ends
We’ll always be best friends

Tell Me

Tell me what you’re thinking
Tell me what you’re feeling
When I hold your hand
Or say you’re the one
The one I'll always need
And kiss your cheek
What runs through your mind?
When our hands are intertwined?
When I tell you
That you make me feel safe, comfortable and real?
I'm not afraid
To tell you what I feel
But your mind
Is just a brick wall to me?
So tell me all about it
Please try and help me see
I don't like the dark,
I don't want to scare you off
I just can't keep my heart in park
I need you to shut me off
Don’t get me wrong
I don't want this to change or end
God no,
That’s worse than I can comprehend
I just need you to let me know
So I can understand

You

You knocked down
the walls of my heart
like joshua at jericho
except it only took
a few words and a smile

your stuck on my mind
like the lyrics to a song
from the nineteen nineties
that no one knows anymore

you left me enraptured
like the harpies
with jason and the argonauts
except YOU
dont know you're singing

your the voice inside my head
when I feel like drowning in my past
reminding me
that It's over
and I'm here

you've invaded my mind
and captured my heart
you don't know
what your worth
but I plan on showing
you you're hesitant
with your heart
but I plan on stealing it
putting it in a diamond vault
within my chest
keeping it safe
and loving you always

to break your heart
would be to kill myself
shatter my own mind
and destroy
all thats good in this world

you are my angel
my joshua
my harpie
my inspiration
and my love
and that
will never change

Of Life, Of Happiness, Of Peace

Like a fog
Over San Francisco
The memories remain
I may forget them
Drown them in some way
But they are there
Hanging over my heart
The sunshine
may burn them away
momentarily
But with every  rainy day
Every laps in sunshine
that casts a shadow over my shoulder
I feel them

Waiting to descend
Upon me like the hounds of hell
Because something
Random, sweet, and innocent
Smacked me in the face
Like an angry girlfriend
Because she caught you with her best friend
Reminding me of what I had taken away
reminding me of what you
I
He
She
We
They
Have done

The horrors committed
The secrets we hide
Behind masks of life
Of happiness
Of peace
The atrocities committed behind closed doors or even in plain sight
Because no one is brave enough to stand up
We walk by
And murmur to ourselves
What can you do?

We appease our minds
With images of our own helplessness
When all it would take
Is a word
A gesture
A look lasting a little to long
That says
I know whats going on

And maybe it would all stop and go away
Maybe one day the human race will grow a spine
And stand up for those that cannot for themselves
We fight wars overseas
But cannot see the wars being fought in out own country
Our  state
Our  town
Our  home

We are unable to see
Because we don’t want to
Everyone walks by
Reads the stories in the newspapers
And shakes their head and murmurs
What a shame
Lock him up
Give him the chair

Yes punishment we dole out
But that does not heal the wounds
Does not give back
A childhood stolen
No
Nothing can do that
We are so focused on punishing past transgressions
That we cannot think
To prevent

That look in her eye?
Learn it
Know it well
It is her guilt
But it should be everyones
It is a guilt
that should hang from the shoulders
of every culture and community
that stands by
and does nothing
while so many struggle to force a façade
Of life
Of happiness
Of peace

Young Love

Youthful exuberance
bubbling
heads bowed together
giggles and kisses exchanged
murmured conversations
oblivious to the world around

Defiance

A hole
Depression
Buried in my soul
I run away
Peace and happiness for a while
But eventually things settle
And everything comes flooding back
I cannot drown you out forever

When will you go away
So the wounds can begin to heal
Everything is wonderful
Then you rear your ugly head
And it all seems so unreal

I love her
And like a smack
to the face
You laugh inside my head
And tell me
I do not belong
Alive among the human race
And she’ll never love you back

Why does this time of year bring you around
The happiness and joy
Reflected on everyone’s face
Mocks the emptiness in my heart
And the chill I can’t burn away

Try as I might I cannot forget you
Cannot forget
Events of my past
Cannot outrun
The truth of what has been done

I do not know
How to be happy
How to love
Or how to move on
I never learned
Because you struck me far to young

I use the ones around me
Trying to find a way to crawl out
I end up hurting
Everyone that tried to help
I wish you wouldn’t shout

To much ruckus inside my brain
I wish you would all shut up
Why can you all not see
Leave me be
Let me focus on the pain
I cannot let this go without facing it
I need to learn to rely on me

I’m not asking you to leave
I’m asking you to let me be
Let me learn
To do in on my own
To live this life
And reap the seeds I’ve sown

I need to learn to love
I need to learn to live
I need to learn to forgive
And then maybe I can forget
And she doesn’t even know it happened

Maybe that’s what’s holding me back
My never ending fear
Of the what would happen
Would you even believe me if I told you
And what would you do then?
It would break you

I must do this on my own
Live with my regrets
I will love her
And be happy
There’s nothing you can do
I’m not running any longer
This is me defying you

Our Day

 I love how we can know
 What's going on behind each other's eyes
Just by looking
I love how we get the same awkward jokes
And misspoken sentences
without the need for senselses lies
I love how you get me
the way we connect
and there's no awakward times
I love to hold your hand
I wish you were here
I want you back by my side

It Was You

I've figured it out
All the dreams I used to have
Where I was happy and in love
But the woman had no face
It was you

All those nights
I sat and wrote
For a lover unknown
All those poems
I wrote for you

All those fantasies
In my head
Where I felt sage
And at peace
But I couldn't see
Who was holding me
It was you

All my life
I have dreamed,
Thought,
Wondered and wished for that girl
All my life
It was you

Daddy

 do you enjoy this feeling
watching my head reeling
knowing I can't control
the self hate
you set to roll

does it make you feel good
to see the blood run down my arm
to hear my moans of pleasure
and know that once again
you're the cause of my self harm

does it make you happy
to see my soul now acheing
rolling in my memories
under your piercing gaze
my happiness is baking

do you feel like a man
when you see me cry
knowing I can't hate you
no matter how I try

everything you did to me
everything you said
everything that has been done
plays withing my head
but all the stuff before that
is what makes me wish my death

you were my daddy
the one who healed my wounds
your bloods not in my veins
and that what made me "safe"
how could you romance and woo
a girl of eighteen minus two

Mother

Sitting here
wanting to cry
wanting to curl up
and simply forget the lies
I let you affect me
I simply don't know why

I learned a long time ago
You'll never love me now
I went and did
Everything that makes you frown
How is it again
I let you get me down

I fell in love
I refuse to leave
I don't do drugs
Not even smoking weed

Yet you would far prefer
If I went through my life high
for you know if I had
She would have passed me by

I do not get high
And I do not get drunk
And I did not get pregnant
From a randomn fuck

How is it you condemn me
When its my happiness you wish
Last time that I saw you
I didn't even get a hug
Nothing have I done wrong
I simply fell in love

Pride

Pain
turmoil in my heart
regret
boiliing in my gut
anguish
what do i do now
hope
somehow
I'll find out how
How to fix this error
And get my life on track
I will find a way
If its the last thing that I do
I will find a way
to one day hear you say
I'm so proud of you

Laughter

Laughter's bubbling up
From my toes
Emotions
The names of which
I do not know
Colors
In shades
I cannot describe
Dancin' before me as i look in your eyes
and i can't help but wonder
What goes on behind
I wish to god
That I could read your mind
We talk about whatever
It's random but real
It's no big thing
To say what we feel
Were both real crazy
But Its all good
We wanna be together
But we don't know that we should
I like you
And you like me
I say we just have fun
Let's wait and see
There's no real reason
To rush right in
I like to play the game but i don't score to win
let's go out tonight
just as friends
if it turns into a date
then we'll just ride the bend
lets go with the flow
and see where we land
be it on the couch
or as a part of the band
it just don't matter
as long as its not forced
cause if we do
we don't want remorse
life long friends
Is what we could be
cause if it doesn't work
we'll just set it free
like i said
its all good
if we wanna be together
then i think we should
stop worrying about what everyone thinks
they'll all be gone faster than you blink
so lets just hang out
let's just have fun
cause you never know
we might have won
lets make it a date
and join the band
lets loose these inhibitions
found throughout the land
but if you don't want to
thats still just fine
I'm your best friend
and you'll always be mine

I Don't Know How This Happened

I don’t know how this happened
I’ve fallen in love
I’m losing my mind
It’s flying free like a dove

All my control
And careful planning
Dissolve like sugar
When I see you standing
There in the hall
Waiting for me

My mind goes blank
I simply can’t breathe
The secrets we’ve shared
All run through my mind
My eyes get blurry
I almost go blind

I see only one thing
Your smile enchants me
I’m rooted to the spot

Your eyes destroy
All sense I had left
My heart starts pounding
I know what comes next

You say my name
Then your arms are around me
I take a deep breath
To regain my composure
Then you smile again
And it’s simply all over

I lose all hope
Let go of all reason
My only thought left
Is just keep breathing

Imagery:Nature

I remember walking through the woods. I remember the damp earthy smell caused by early morning dew. A chill hovers in the air around me, splotches of comforting warmth on my skin as the first rays of sun break through the leafy canopy, the rustle of underbrush as the inhabitants stir, stretching and preening feathers and fur tousled by sleep, the first drowsy calls of birds as they greet the morn. somewhere off to my left and just ahead the babbly of a lazy brook as its cold, clear waters rush and break across the rocky bed. the serenity broken only by the plod of my feet in time to my languid gait, and the whispered click and whir of my shutter in an amateur attempt to capture the beauty and peace of that time and place.
          A doe, three paces right and six ahead, contemplates my approach with luminous brown orbs. Slowly, cautiously I knelt, the dampness of the earth seeping through the rough fabric of my jeans, to steady my aim. As my finger tensed to capture the moment, a fawn, soft velvety brown and flecked with white, almost as if someone had flicked a paintbrush at him, steps to her side. In awe my camera droops slowly and then falls from my hand. My sudden movement to catch it, despite the strap around my neck, scares the doe, gone.

          I rise muttering quiet curses at my own stupidity and brush the muck from me knees, only managing to spread it further as I wipe my hands across my thighs. I move to explore the area where they stood, the only evidence of our encounter a near perfect set of prints in the soft soil. A sudden vibration from my pocket jolts me from my reverie, reminding me of a world that I, for a few moments, had managed to leave behind.

BabyGirl

You call me babygirl
But you're the young one
You smile up at me
And I cannot feel the winter wind
You hold out your arms
Asking for a hug
And I want to pick you up
And never set you down
Within the reach of all the filth
That clings to so many souls
You're my golden haired angel
Sweet as cotton candy clouds
You warm my heart
Like the first rays of sunlight
That line the clouds
In hues of pink and gold
Long after you depart
I feel I can fly
At the time of our next meet
I look for you
Forgetting whats in front of me
I trip and fall over my backpack
And as my friends all laugh
And you try to help me up
I glance up at your face
And realize I fell for you
I smile and I laugh
But I'm cursing inside
Because you’re really not the type
I should be falling for
So young and innocent
You don’t know what you hold
The pieces of a heart
That’s always been told no
No you can’t love her
No I don’t like girls
I know you’re not the type
So I shouldn’t even try
But I just couldn’t stop my heart
That morning you caught my eye
Backlit by a sunrise
My heart snapped to attention
And ever since
It has been ceaselessly marching
To the beat of your young heart
It shows no sign of stopping
However I ignore it
But so far its just not working
Even attacking when I’m snoring
I sit here watching you read this
Aloud to all these people
Watching your expression change
As comprehension sets in
Me heart thuds ever faster
As you search me out of the crowd
Your eyes lock to mine
As the applause rings aloud
And you make your way toward me
I’m scared half to death
But I feel sorry for the rest
They’ll never get to hear the rest
Will you banish all my fears
And piece together my heart
Or is this really the end
As I’ve alienated my friend

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The acrid smoke from the charcoal stings my nose. The hiss and sizzle of grease hitting the flames as I flip the burgers. I look up hearing a childish squeal just a little to close for comfort. A broad grin spreads across my face as I see you shooing them a safer distance away. Your hair falling from its hasty bun, your face flushed a twinkle in your eye as I watch you romp and chase them for a moment. Your laughter and their squeals send thrills of delight through me.
“Don’t burn dinner!” you holler letting me know I’d been caught staring. I turn my attention back to the grill a tidal wave of love and pride crashing through me until I fear drowning. I feel you slip your arm around my waist and lean against me slightly, I love the way you fit against me. You plant a kiss on the side of my chin and I smile and kiss your forehead.
“Dinners almost ready,” I say smiling bumping my hip softly against yours.
“I’ll go round up the kids and get them washed up.” I watch you stride off calling their names ushering them into the bathroom to wash their face and hands a smile on your face. I slide the patties of the grill and onto a platter carrying them to the stone picnic table already set up and ready to go. I lean down to pull the last few things out of the cooler including our drinks.
I let out a noise half grunt and half squeal as I feel a small body rocket into me from behind.
“Hungry?” I laugh picked our little man up and twirling him around before setting him in his seat. The girls laugh and play scrambling into theirs seats. As we sit down and get ready to eat a puzzled look crosses my face as my plate morphs into a math book the voice of the children distort becoming deeper and more mature. I look up and see a dozen teenage faces staring back at me.
“Ms. Fuller are you ok?” Mr. Johnson is standing at the head of my row looking at me.
“Yes sir,” I reply as a bright red heat marches up the back of my neck and over my ears.
“Would you care to answer the question?”
As I open my mouth the ask him to repeat it the bell rings saving me from further embarrassment. I jump up cramming books and papers into my bag feeling his eyes burning holes in my back all the way out the door. I sprint through the hall in an attempt to avoid the crushing mass of teenage humanity out the door and right up to the car.
“how was school?” my grandma inquires as I fall into the seat.

“Fantastic!” I reply enthusiastically with a bit of a chuckle as a bewildered smile settles on her face.

Letter To A Child

Hey there honey
I hear you're up set
You don't understand
Why mommy's with someone she just met
Daddy’s gone
And you don't know why
Mommy still loves you
And so do I
Daddy had problems
He and mom fought
So a ticket home
Is what he bought
He still loves you
And he'll always be in your heart
But maybe, just maybe
You can find room for a new love to start

I Love You So Much It Hurts (Acrostic)

I saw you that first time
Laughter on your lips
Out of my mouth a feeble "hi"
Voice by breathless chords
Even as i swear not to fall
You grin and it's all
Over I can't hold on you've
Underminded my will completely
Souls collided and began to fly
Outdistancing my doubt
My vow not to fall for you is now buried
Under six feet of smiles and flowers
Chances are you'll break my
Heart but know that
It still cares
Tomorrow i may want to die while
Half of me still screams out lines
Undeniably meant for you
Regrets my haunt me later but
Today i have fallen
So tomorrow is up to you

I Miss You

I miss you
Can you hear my heart calling you?
Can you hear my soul scream?
Can you see the desperation in my face
When you say I won‘t see you again?
Can you feel the tears
That fall like summer rain?
I miss you
I miss the conversation
And all the easy laughs
I miss the way we used to sit
And watch the people pass
I miss my best friend
And all the times we had
I miss all the jokes we’d make
About the latest fad
I could talk to you about anything
There weren’t any taboos
I could tell you everything
My deepest thoughts you knew
If you ever wonder
Let the knowledge ring through
Know that deep in my heart
I miss you