Dead And Gone

Gone

A black and burning hole
You left inside my core
Where once resided my soul
　
You ripped apart my heart
And drown me in my tears
You threw me to the curb
And solidified my fears
　
I cried for you
I tried everything I knew
Where once there was an easy smile
Now my eyes see shades of blue
　
I’m broken
There’s nothing left to give
I’m numb
I don’t even want to live
　
No tears left
To heal my soul
The pain I caused
Returned threefold
　
I can’t go on without you there
I don’t even want to try
I can’t give up, I just can’t die
For that would only prove you right
　
I know I must move on
I know I cannot die
But for now
I’m going to take my time and cry
　
I will do what I have to
To let this pain roll free
I can’t bottle it up
Don’t try to lend me glee
　
This scar will stay forever more
My heart is guarded well
An icy wall of stone and memories
My body naught
But an empty shell
　
Hug me, kiss me, make me bleed
You’ll get the same from me
An icy smile and a thank you ma’am
No emotions will you see
　
I’m dead an gone
Deep inside
But you will never know
Forgive me lord
My pain is whole
Love is a luxury I cannot afford