Hiding

So many things in my heart

That my mouth wants to say

So many strange little parts

To our little play

My brain knows I'm stupid

But my heart just won't listen

Maybe it's cupid

But at night the tears glisten

So much I've held in

But now I just can't

I'm scared when you read this we'll be at an end

But I have to let it out my own little rant

The warm fuzzy feeling

When you tell me you're proud

You leave my head reeling 

When affections allowed

Staying up till the early am

The little things you say and do

When I least expect them

That let me know your feelings true

I'm not sure what to think

But I know what I feel

I'm standing on the brink

The danger's to real

So much deep inside

That you may never know

I wonder how long I can hide

Before my heart blows

Love ramblings

       Sometimes love doesn't come rushing up on you wearing bells and whistles and announcing itself with butterfly filled tummies and quivering knees. Sometimes it sneaks up on you peeking out from a glimmer in her eye and a bashful smile on her lips. I think maybe that's when it hits you hardest though. When it hits without warning and you realize that all this time you've been falling in love with this woman before you. When you catch yourself gazing at her profile and doing ridiculous things and making yourself look silly just to catch a glimpse of that smile or a few notes of her laughter. When each of her tears feel like swift jab in the gut from an angry bull but you'd gladly take a thousand more just to stop her tears. When you find yourself in amazement of simple things like how her hair falls over her face when she's embarrassed or how her fingers play idly with the necklace she wears. When you realize that your heart aches with pleasure when her smile is turned upon you or she playfully punches your arm for telling a raunchy joke even as her face blushes and she all but doubles over in giggles. What is love without friendship and camaraderie? What is love without that burning need to make her happy and keep her safe?  Sometimes you don't realize you're falling in love until its to late. But if you're lucky...she's falling in love to.